Saturday, 20 December 2014

FOMO Overload

Up until November this year I was the kind of person who filled up her social calendar months in advance with only the odd day or half day spare to relax. I was always on the go and running around at a thousand miles an hour between work, the gym, brand events, nights out, my boyfriend's house and home aswell as visiting family and friends when I could squeeze the time in. I used to complain that I didn't have enough time to fit everything in, joked that I needed a PA and often felt run down, stressed and on the verge of a nervous breakdown but the chaos that surrounded me was less scary than the thought of the silence without it. I always made an effort to attend any events organised by friends and acquaintances whether it was a birthday, engagement or wedding celebration or just a catch up meal or a few drinks as the thought of missing out was too much to take. Of course sometimes when things got too much or my regular headaches I was having got the better of me I would have to cancel on people which I hated doing as I don't want to let people down and I would feel really disappointed for missing out on a good night out and an opportunity to get glammed up.(which I also love)

Then on 30th November everything changed when I was rudely awoken by a pounding headache behind my eye and around the back of my head. The pain was as if a screw was being hammered into my forehead and was so bad that I couldn't do anything other than lay in bed. I tried a variety of drugs including ones that had gotten rid of the migraines I was having a year ago but nothing provided any relief, not even the tablets that the doctor prescribed to me at my emergency appointment on 1st  December. It got to 3rd December and there was still no improvement but luckily I had a doctors appointment booked for something else on that day so discussed how I was feeling with the GP who asked me some questions. It was during these questions that I had a seizure which then happened again later that day in hospital in front of a neurologist so I was admitted to hospital for 2 days and had the relevant tests and scans. We discovered that I have a blood clots in the veins that pass the blood out of the brain and I was immediately put on blood thinning medication to stop further clots from forming. My body will disperse the clots but it can be a very slow process and I should know more after my scan on 8th January. I haven't felt like myself since and still get headaches, although nowhere near as severe. I can't spend much time on the computer so I can't go to work and haven't been blogging or going anywhere other than hospital appointments, my boyfriends house or to visit family who live locally. 

I feel like it's ruined my favourite time of year as I can't go out with my friends and can't even have a drink at home as it messes with my medication. Loud places with flashing lights could trigger my seizures and busy places are also a bad idea so my Christmas spirit is severely lacking this year but my FOMO is in overdrive. I miss getting dressed up in glitter and sequins, seeing people I haven't seen for years and being full of the joys of Christmas (and alcoholic) spirit. I suppose I'll just have to make up for it in 2015


  1. I hope you are feeling a bit better now,im sorry to hear about how ill you have been. I hope 2015 brings you better health and happiness and lots of great outfits! :)

    1. Thanks Toni, still got a way to go so maybe the second part if the year will be better